Who am I ?
Hello, my name is Beau and I'm a thinker. And I love that about myself. The problem is I got a little lopsided in dealing with the world with just thinking. There are some problems you can't think you're way out of. Especially internal ones.
I found myself frustrated with my internal life and disillusioned with Love and my fellow man and my own humanity. One of my biggest values in life is to be authentic and honest with myself about who I am. But I realized that as I looked inside ( in an attempt to be honest ) I started really calling out my shortcomings . The problem was I was only being partially honest because I was dismissing all the good stuff about myself. And the neutral stuff which at least wasn't bad.
I was only allowing myself access to half of myself. And that way of seeing colored everything and everyone in my life. I started to get overwhelmed with the smallness and bad things I saw in others and in the world in general. Everything was affected by that lens I was living through.
I was effectively cut off from my heart. And my soul.
In seeing the dark parts of myself without the balance to see the good side or to let that part of me shine. I started to identify myself with the darker parts and say, well that's who I must be.
So I feel like I became this distorted version of myself. I wasn't out wreaking havoc on the world or hurting people because I didn't want to do that. But I became pretty cut off from the world. I didn't want to have much to do with it honestly.
I was seeing myself as bad and unworthy because I wasn't living up to my ideals but wasn't really sure how to open up my heart.
I was hateful and I knew it and I felt stuck there.
I can go into all kinds of reasons for why I became that way, but the truth is, I was doing the best I could and couldn't quite get to where I wanted to be internally.
So my goal with this site is to share with you my progress and hopefully some inspiration and tools that have helped me in my path to reunite with my heart and soul.
I'm grateful you are here and hope you find what you are looking for.
I would be happy to hear from you.
If you've got something you'd like to share, please leave a comment or contact me.
- Beau Miller
I found myself frustrated with my internal life and disillusioned with Love and my fellow man and my own humanity. One of my biggest values in life is to be authentic and honest with myself about who I am. But I realized that as I looked inside ( in an attempt to be honest ) I started really calling out my shortcomings . The problem was I was only being partially honest because I was dismissing all the good stuff about myself. And the neutral stuff which at least wasn't bad.
I was only allowing myself access to half of myself. And that way of seeing colored everything and everyone in my life. I started to get overwhelmed with the smallness and bad things I saw in others and in the world in general. Everything was affected by that lens I was living through.
I was effectively cut off from my heart. And my soul.
In seeing the dark parts of myself without the balance to see the good side or to let that part of me shine. I started to identify myself with the darker parts and say, well that's who I must be.
So I feel like I became this distorted version of myself. I wasn't out wreaking havoc on the world or hurting people because I didn't want to do that. But I became pretty cut off from the world. I didn't want to have much to do with it honestly.
I was seeing myself as bad and unworthy because I wasn't living up to my ideals but wasn't really sure how to open up my heart.
I was hateful and I knew it and I felt stuck there.
I can go into all kinds of reasons for why I became that way, but the truth is, I was doing the best I could and couldn't quite get to where I wanted to be internally.
So my goal with this site is to share with you my progress and hopefully some inspiration and tools that have helped me in my path to reunite with my heart and soul.
I'm grateful you are here and hope you find what you are looking for.
I would be happy to hear from you.
If you've got something you'd like to share, please leave a comment or contact me.
- Beau Miller
